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"You see, the song is the life, the life I can't live" And yes, as her words echo from the brown, worn pages I understand her voice...her meaning...her thought in that time of explaination. The song is the life, but I cannot sing. The song is the feeling...the feeling of the quivering core being soothed...the feeling mending the hole in the mirror...the feeling of being seen, found out, embraced, and again, I say, loved. But the song cannot be sung on a constant basis. The song cannot be sung by one who is voiceless. The song is only imaginative...the song is a figment of Fantasma. And what is the use when the song can do more harm than good? As my fine glassware shatters under the high pitched notes--as my feet tremble from the depths of it's low pitch seduction...as my eyes squint to half-state when the pitch becomes unbarable...when tears stream down my face from the song's near end. And thus, as stated, the song cannot be sung, though the song is the life...the life that I can't live. The song is a visionary wind only felt by the one who has the vision. The song is a memory that can only be remembered in first person. The song, though written and read, is fiction...a dream...a figment of Fantasma...of fantasy...of nothingness... "The song is the life, the life I can't live."
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